Derailed!

I really must post a summary of my trip to St. Louis for the holidays but I have not been in the mood to write much here. It'll come soon, I hope. Today we will just say that the train known as Melissa has derailed. I was doing really well with some major issues(as well as can be expected anyways) but this weekend has just gone down the drain. Friday afternoon I was in a great place. Then I went and drank too much and haven't been the same since. I realized a few things that made me unhappy while recovering from my time with the rum. And then I tried to do some packing in the kitchen and it just made me realize I'll actually be moving soon and that does not make me happy. The reality of my situation here with friends and my decline from a great house to the room I'm renting are both just depressing situations.