I have no social life

John is off at a bachelor party tonight, which means I am home alone doing things like grocery shopping and dishes, maybe some writing.

For many women, a boyfriend out of the house might mean a night for the girls. Me, I am here at home all alone. Why? Because the one person I would go out with on such an occasion is not in town this weekend. I'm not sure how I lost my entire social life. Moving across the country didn't really do much to help that. But one would think a year and a half would have produced some sort of community. But no. There's like two people that I actually hang out with. Take those away, and I have nothing.

Except Jane Austen. I think some Pride and Prejudice (the old BBC movie) is in order.

I have a dead character!

Today I realized one of my characters is dead. She has one small scene thus far and all she did was sleep in her stroller. She was supposed to grow up and reappear late in the book, but I realized today that she's actually dead. She dies when she is 5. Sad times. But really, it is for the best. She wouldn't have been much use anyways. I think she actually helps my main character more by being dead. Yeah.

Kids Nowadays

I find a write a lot of about my brothers-they give me a lot of jumping off type material, what can I say. Today I am wondering what they are teaching kids nowadays.

Over the weekend I spoke to my youngest brother on the phone. He was telling me that his bearded dragon had recently shed a layer of his skin. The conversation went something like this:

H: I'm holding Dudley's skin in my hand right now.
Me: Oh that's lovely.
H: He sheds it like a snake.
M: I know.
H: He probably has leprosy. Leprosy is when you lose your skin.

Then I went on to try to let him know leprosy was more than just "losing skin" and that you can indeed shed without having leprosy, but I didn't get very far. I don't know where he gets these ideas but I blame the schools.

The Tudors

For some reason, I am obsessed with Henry VIII and everything that went on with his court. I guess it's about the romance, seduction, and betrayal. It's just exciting. It's not always pleasant to think about it being historically true, but then again I really do love history, especially the controversial parts of it. I blame my mom for starting my obsession. And,in a fictional exaggerated sense, it is really fun.

So I just finished reading my latest dive into the fictional Henry. As I mention about The Other Boleyn Girl, Philippa Gregory is my favorite author of historical fiction. I just finished her latest book, The Boleyn Inheritance. Not nearly as exciting as the other, but still amazing. I blame my lack of interest in the fact that the woman I cared about, Anne of Cleves, didn't get her head chopped off, and the woman I could care less about, Katherine Howard, did. Kitty, as she is often called, was a young flippant thing. The blond cheerleader who did the entire football team. I could really have cared less if she died. Still, I really enjoyed the book. And it took me forever to finish, because of school, so I feel great knowing it is over and I can start something new.

I also just finished watching the 1st season of the Showtime series, The Tudors. This show has all the things I love about Henry, sex and betrayal, but I'm still waiting on the beheadings. There was someone burned a the stake, though. That was fun. I hate the actress that plays Anne Boleyn. As John said, she has a pig face. Sure, she looks like AB well enough, but she can't act. She should stick with porn. Wolsey was great in this. Go Sam Neil. And Katherine was wonderful. My only complaint is they started the series with Anne Boleyn, where there was so much of Henry before her. And I have a feeling that once she dies, they won't keep going with the series. Why is she the only one most people remember? Henry gets good and crazy after she messes with his head. Old fat Henry was fun. While I look forward to Anne without a head, I do hope the series keeps going after that. Oh, and the fact that the series also focuses on Henry's downfall with the church rather than just sex, is also good.

lit mag topic ideas

So, we were recently told about our final project for my EP class. And immediately I knew I wanted to do an online literary magazine. Or, what it will most likely turn out to be- a collection of works by yours truly on my website, disguised as a magazine by a lovely title, table of contents, etc. I had been tossing around the idea of starting my own lit mag... maybe not seriously now, but an idea for the future. When I have 5 minutes of spare time in which I can read submissions. So, it only seemed right to focus on this for class. There's only one problem...

I need to figure out what to write about! I will be doing a collection of poems on love/relationships/family for my final MFA project so I have been focusing on writing that will work for that. But, I don't want this project in any way near that. I need something new. So, I can use my collection of poems about Elizabeth Custer, which really have no place anywhere else on the planets. But, I figure this can just be a later addition to the website. I'm not really feeling it now.

I guess what it really comes down to is I want to write something new. I just don't know what. I feel like writing about Baltimore would just make me depressed, though it is an idea. I could write about Ireland, which would actually make an amazing mag, as I have amazing pictures. Colorado, always something there to say, but it's just so...overdone (by me). Away from places, I can go really simple and choose something like rocks, or seaweed. Could be fun. Or I could just do a bunch of experimental poems that don't mean much of anything. Or... I just don't know.

Now, I really don't have to make any decisions now. I just wanted to start writing over Spring Break, so I'm been tossing things around. I think maybe my brain just needs to stop. I do welcome any and all thoughts.

bedside pondering

John sleeps on the left side of the bed, I sleep on the right. In the bathroom, John uses the sink on the right, I use the sink on the left. Why?!

I have no conclusion, this is just something that crossed my mind today as I was brushing my teeth. Why do we switch sides?

I wonder if there is any study that talks about what it means to sleep on a certain side of the bed and what's wrong when other "side" things don't reflect that. I'm sure there is. I just need to find it. I am intrigued.

adorable video

My ex-roomie and I used to watch this all the time. It made bad days a little more cheerful. I had almost forgotten about it until I was scrolling through my bookmarks.

Ready for Spring!

I know, who isn't? But really, I am so ready for Spring it hurts. One of the reasons I do not live in Colorado is because I don't think I could handle the winters. Ideally, I would live half of the year in CO and half of he year in North Carolina. Maybe when I'm rich and famous, right? Yeah.

Anyway, I really haven't been myself lately. I am moody and sick and just not motivated. I blame the winter. I was so under the weather still today so I stayed home and rested. And I'm still working my way back to normal. I think the nice weather is helping, but I know it's not going to last so that depresses me. If only the forecast went beyond 10 days so I could see those nice temps on there again. Be spring sang it!

I also blame school for my illness. It is stressing me out big time. I spent far too much time this weekend doing homework. Yes, I enjoyed myself some (woo happy hour and movies) but still, that was all of, 5 hours of my weekend. The rest was reading/writing/etc. I know it's weakening me to be this stressed. So I guess I'm hoping Spring will rejuvenate me and all this work won't be so draining.

Blah.

website link

Well, I wasn't going to put this online yet, but I went ahead and did it. And it turned out ok. Hopefully all the links are still working. Yay web projects! Go visit and explore. For now it's only one poem, but eventually there will be more to see. Piranha Books

ok, so I decided to switch my website to freewebs because it's free, and it has no ads. so the new link is here: Piranha Books

stupid phones

So I can't make outgoing calls on my phone. And I'm sure it's only a matter of time before it is disconnected completely. Not cool. I'm pretty sure I can blame my dad for not giving them any money. Though I pay them, my little brothers' phone is connected to my plan so if he doesn't do the same I get screwed. Just another reason I can be mad at him. I won't get into the logistics of why he still has connections to my plan. But in good news, I will now be resolving this problem. Cause I pretty much need a phone. I just have to find the time to go to Verizon. *sigh*